Christmas

Another day in the suck, and so I've decided to stop shaving for the remainder of my time here. It's been about a week and everytime I wake up and look in the mirror I realize how much I continue to grow looking more and more like my father. Oh well, another day gone by. Just gotta keep saving all I can and continue to stay the course I've set before me.

Gonna miss Christmas a bit this year, not only because my Grandmother and Jason are no longer with us, but also because I'm unable to fill that void by making myself present for my family. I guess there is a price for everything in life, and I suppose if you want to make your life work, you gotta compromise and make sacrifices. But these things are made by my own decisions and I will always stand by my choices whether they are right or wrong. It's better to make a wrong decision than to not make one at all. I guess the primary reason I had to leave again, is that I have a hard time living in civilian shoes, even two years after I have left the military. You spend enough time in that kind of environment and it becomes truly apparent as to why the military operates in the way it does. Even now being a civilian overseas I find it hard to stop myself from putting my chevrons back on and getting the job done. It's just how the Marine Corps made me.

Another reason I had to leave was because I did not forsee any major opportunities back in New York, at least nothing worthwhile. I know for a fact my friends and family will always be there, and I know that I'll do my best to make it back to them and start having good times again. The world doesn't stop for me or anyone else, so if you want to get shit done you just gotta kick the ball and keeping rolling.

And here is me again a couple weeks ago, in my bachelor pad amongst the Afghanistan real estate.

Although I get homesick occasionally, I've become fully accustomed after spending so many years away from home to continue to be fine with it. If you find yourself just lingering and thinking about home and what everyone else is doing, you lose sight of everything that your supposed to be doing so I do my best to avoid that.

Well, I'll sign out here, wish you all a solid holiday season, especially to my family back home.

Merry Christmas Alex, ya spoiled brat.

"Rest in Peace D-Money, I'll see ya when I get there."